Wrath- I’ve always had a hell of a temper, and can be quite vindictive when someone does or cause something I perceive to be an injustice or indignity towards me. I can be hateful at times, and full of rage towards those I’ve perceived have wronged me. I’ve gotten better in this regard over the years though, and have learned to control it better to channel that anger into a strength rather than just frustration. However, I can still be full of venomous rage over stuff like betrayal, mistrust, or any perceived attempt to harm me. When I’m in that state, I can be very immune to reasoning, logic, or objectivity. Everything is insignificant, and my thinking process tends to border on the extreme. The only thing keeping me from committing outright violence in this regard are the legal consequences it may entail, and the guilt I may feel after hurting another human being once I’ve come to my senses. The latter is usually less relevant though, as the person would probably truly deserve it if i
Pride- I try very hard to be the best of what I do or what I’m passionate about. I can be a bit of a perfectionist and believe that if you’re doing something, it should always be done “the right way”. My ego is something that I’ve lowered and mastered more and more in recent years, but there’s always an in borne desire and need to be better, and to strive to be above others. I naturally see many as being below me if I didn’t know them better, and I can be very overconfident due to my gifts and abilities. However, it’s never caused me to mistreat others and is usually something that manifests as a self confidence I keep within myself, if I can’t always externalise it in a way that allows others to see my accomplishments. I can be entitled at times, as I believe that certain things belong to me and I must have it. If someone I consider lesser than me projects their own inferiority upon me and attempts to drag me down or make me feel lesser about myself, then they risk triggering the above sin.
Lust- I can be quite erm…sensual, and usually don’t really suffer from being conservative in that regard. It’s definitely caused problems for me in the past such as failed relationships and what not. However, it’s also a reason why I’m able to start relationships with people who may not even necessarily be coworkers or people outside my circle, such as waitresses, caterers, or even people I don’t know too well but have a thing for. There are pros and cons to this behaviour of course.
Greed- A recent sin I’ve developed, born out of necessity. I want more and not just in terms of wealth. I want more luxury, more assets, more resources, and I want all these things so I can live and facilitate the life and goals that I’ve always wanted to.
Envy- I can be envious from time to time, but it’s definitely something I don’t suffer from as much anymore. I’ve learned to be somewhat grateful with my blessings, and no longer wish or imagine living someone else’s life. In my view, no one is actually perfect and everyone has their own flaws, weaknesses, and insecurities to be exploited. Thus, I never covet anyone else’s life or their problems because I know I must take care of me and mine. I can have a healthy bit of admiration for other people I consider to be my “betters”, but I usually try to learn from them and take any chance to work together with them as an “opportunity” rather than thinking of it as a wound to my ego that I must defer to them. So this isn’t necessarily a problem for me.
Sloth- Definitely was a problem growing up as a kid, as I was pretty lazy and unmotivated. Not the case anymore, as I usually have a mindset of getting things done as soon as possible, and even rushing. For me, living at a slow pace and taking a step back is actually harder than going a hundred miles per hour. I can chill at times, but I feel restless if I’m not doing something that I’m passionate about or something that is of benefit or purpose and meaning. I used to be lazier when I smoked weed, but ever since I’ve quit all that I basically stopped being lazy.
Gluttony- I burn a shit ton of calories every day, so refuelling is a must and I’m not sure if that makes me a glutton. I don’t really eat excessively, and am nowhere near obese so there’s that…I rarely indulge in eating sweets or additional helpings of food outside of the standard 3 meals a day, and if I do then I usually feel guilty about it afterwards. I have nothing against overweight people or people who get their dopamine from eating a lot at all. I can understand why food might be a source of happiness for some and I respect all different types of people. I just can’t do it because I used to be a fat kid and don’t want to go back to that
