Paradise Regained

Fuck, I've been trying to figure that out too.

I'm pretty sure the answer is no. It's just that there are fewer people who know true friendship than there are people who know love.

Love has many meanings and it differs with each person.

There is, but it's rare; especially with inter-sex relationships. In real life I'm happy to say that I have at least 2 real friends, one of whom is a guy and the other not.

I'm pretty sure the answer is no. It's just that there are fewer people who know true friendship than there are people who know love.

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Its actually the complete opposite for me for the most part, the people I hang out with are people that I trust to the fullest extent. It takes a longer period for me to fully love someone and trust them, which in return, makes those people fewer in number.

In regards to the question though, I ask myself that daily.

I don't know that there is a difference.

I once had a friendship where, as cheesy as it might sound, I felt like maybe he was a part of me that got lost along the way. Due to complications on his side, be it lack of desire/effort/time, things fell apart. The following years I made as much effort as I felt I could to repair what had happened. I couldn't walk the whole way though. It had to be a meeting, and I would've walked the whole way for him if he'd only taken one step forward. We were both painfully aware of what was happening, and I had given him numerous chances and warnings on what was going on and what would happen.

Either way, it was really one of the most painful experiences I've had. It was worse than any breakup. I never looked at him as a potential lover, just as my dear friend. It was an acute pain at first and for months it stayed that way, but after a year it settled into a dull throb when I let my mind wander into territory it knew to stay out of. It's now settled into a hollowness that I have grown used to. I was never one to look to replace him though. He was a very special person, and I can do is take the good memories and smile.

I can understand your happiness, and it makes me happy for you. When things between his and my friendship were looking up... Euphoria doesn't even begin to describe the experience.