I remember when I'd hold back tears. And sometimes when I couldn't do it anymore. I remember the sunlight hurting. I remember not speaking for days straight. Not for not having anything to say but for having no one to say it to. I remember when you weren't someone I could trust and a fake smile got me through a day of having to deal with you. I'm remembering things hard to remember because I half lived them part of me wanting something else being somewhere else. I remember tip toeing around the issue. I remember being scared I'd be found out. Hell, I remember being scared I'd find it out.

I remember when..

That's things past tense.