I've done many irresponsible and uncaring things during my highschool years. I cheated at times, especially when I was under the pressure of being punished by my abusive step-father. I forgot to turn my work in. I took my studies for granted, only memorizing enough to pass tests. In the end, I got a 4.0, but that was only because I finally understood the meaning of hard work in my last couple of years, and put everything into my academics. I was always smart, but I had a hard time applying my abilities- most of the time I was too concerned about the consequences of not finishing in time to make sure I'd learn everything thuroughly.

Despite my difficult time, I was blessed with the opportunity to start anew, and it's been going great. I want to become a medical student, graduate, and become an MD in whatever specialization I choose to pursue after. Right now I am enrolled in a pre-med program, and I'm not near the hard part. However, due to my ease in getting through the work thus far on my own, with 4.0 GPA's at that, I feel like I can do this. Even a once slacking student such as myself was given the means to become better, and slowly, my dream has become clearer and clearer. The only thing that stands in my way is the coursework.

If course, I've been criticised by othert med students and family. They tell me that, since I struggled somewhat in highschool, there is no place for me in a medical college. I aim at proving them wrong by working my rear-end off and taking all of my work seriously. I won't study to pass; I'll study to pass with complete understanding of the material, or atleast most of it. If this means spending several hours reviewing the basics, taking fundamental classes, or hiring tutors, then that's what I'll do.

Why do I want to be a doctor? Well, that's simple- I want to do something that I have always been interested in, and will allow me to work with all sorts of people. I don't care if I have to put in several hours a day and constantly be on call- I've seen dedicated doctors do it, and never complaign once about their work. On this note, some of my happiest moments have been in hospitals, and having opportunities to hold conversations with the doctors. There's just something about them that draws tremendous respect from me- although this also depends on how serious they are. I tend not to like the doctors that simply do their work for pay, and otherwise care less about the job. The doctor I want to be cares about his patients as himself, work with other doctors as a team to get things done, and enjoy every second of what he does.

I've been warned of the amount of work I'll face, and the competition against other smarter students to get into a medical college. However, I really don't care; I say this from taking several weeks and months of contemplation. Even after I've considered possibly failing ot 'losing' to other students, I still want this so bad. As I see it, academics are only hurdles that everyone must climb over; and I know that if I didn't make the initiative, I'd hate myself forever, and never be satisfied. I'd much rather go down doing everything I can than to give up knowing I could have done more.

I have a good friend, now a vetrinarion, who worked so long for his career, and failed some classes and even flunked his entrance exam twice. However, because he wanted to achieve his dream, he kept picking himself back up and trying again. With the failures he gained knowledge and experience, and now he operates one of the most successful animal clinics in my rural town. When I first met him, I was only in the fifth grade, and he was just starting out. He was just like I am now, but he finished HS with a considerably lower GPA, and was bad at science and math (like me).

So, anyone can tell my what they want, but I will not give up and stoop as low as them. If any doctor tells me I have no place to aim at being one, then he shouldn't be practicing medicine- being a doctor is about motivating patients and others who seek their knowledge.

When the sun sets and the waves of change roll in, you will see me standing on the stone of success in my lab jacket, smiling triumphently in the orange light.